I may know what you are talking about, I too have never had a girlfriend or been in a meaningful realasionship, I too am an atheist and have thought about suicide. THINGS GET BETTER I am now in college and are improving slowly, and am meeting some wonderful girls. You have to give life a chance, things may suck so bad you want to just slit your throat and end it all, but if you sit and think about it for long enough you'll eventually see that life is worth living. Hey, you might even get to go skydiving.
I don't want you to die, please read this and reconsider, If you sighn back in look at the chat, people you don't even know care about you, please don't make a choice you can never back out of.
Now don't do it.
I can remember the night I legitimately contemplated suicide almost perfectly. Every time I see the sun shining, taste something delicious, or even laugh, I am so happy that I didn't end it that day.
Yes, my life is painfully average. I don't have many friends, and the ones I do usually make me feel inferior. I'm doing well as far as grades go at college, but I can hardly afford it anymore. I've never been in love. Guys don't give me a second glance. There is nothing special about me.
And you know what? I'd rather be average and alive than average and dead.
We're all here for you, together, as painfully average nerdfighters.
you could get a bf in two seconds. you know why? cuz your a girl. its that simple. its doesnt work the other way
I know this is six months since the last post but I just wanted to say thank you. You are a beautiful group of people and I am grateful that I came across this page. I had some horrible thoughts in my head and decided to reach out and find something to distract me. A simple google search for "reasons not to commit suicide" brought me to this page. As I cried and read each one of your posts, I gradually started feeling better. Just thinking that a group of strangers would get together to help others is amazing to me. Who new that words from strangers could impact me like this. From the bottom of my heart, thank you guys.
319. The smell of coffee in the morning.
320. The painting in the sky that is the sunrise.
321. The feeling of sand between your toes. (This one might be limited to me. I just really love how it feels)
My own depression story started when I hit puberty. That was about 12 years ago. I never attempted suicide but I got really close. I spent the majority of junior high and high school feeling inadequate and ignored but at this point in my life I can look back and see just how wrong I was. In the midst of the pain it is hard to see reality. It was no different for me. I had a best friend, though, who kept me in line and convinced me to just try to get through today. Tomorrow I could go through with it if I still felt that way. I didn't get help until I was a senior in college, just two years ago. My advice to all of you out there is to get help if you can and to give today a try.Tomorrow you can still go through with it if you still feel the same way.
I'm almost positive that this has already been said, but here it is anyway. My dad committed suicide three years ago, and that flipped so many people's lives upside down. How would you feel if your family, your significant other, or your friends and peers had to find your body hanging inside of a closet, and were forced to scatter your ashes way before your time? That isn't okay. At all.
People love you, more people than you know. My school has been rocked by a string of suicides, with seven students being killed since my freshman year by their own hand. I see the utter sadness in the faces of their friends, and the agony of their siblings. These things are in my own face. Groups of people, people that you never even thought gave a damn about you, come together in grief and yearn for their beloved person back. Most of these people didn't know these students -- but they were still collapsing onto the gym floor in screaming, tearful fits over the unfairness and cruelty of a life being ended so needlessly.
Don't think that people don't love you, they do. No matter what you've done. From an alcoholic father to the high school drop out, when they're gone people feel it. And they feel it deep, hard, and for a long time. So please don't kill yourself. There is always a reason to keep on living, even if living for the sake of living is the reason. Life is beautiful, and things always pass. Things can get better. Dwell outside of your cloud and step into the sunlight.
If you can't live for yourself, live for others.
We need you, more than you'll ever know.
323. books (:
It is never worth it, there are people who love you now, or will love u in the future.
What about your mother. it would tear her apart.
Little Brother and/or sister?
I know that this discussion is a bit old, but I felt like I had to add something on to it.
I don't really know why or how I ended up here, but I'm glad I did. Tonight has been the worst night of my life. I know that probably sounds dramatic. I know I seem like I'm overreacting, but I'm not. This isn't the first time I've thought about things this way. I'm trying to not focus on what some people would call an easy way out, but sometimes it feels like the only option. I don't know if there's anyone out there who can understand that.
I just wanted to thank every person who posted on this discussion. I couldn't make it past the beginning before crying. I never cry. Just. . . thank you, everyone. I realize now that I don't even know what I was intending on saying in this post. I'm not going to get into my whole life story, never mind to strangers on the internet (no offense). This night ended up changing my life, I knew it would. I just didn't expect it to be in a good way.
Thank you again, everyone.
Lainey, glad you were helped.
I've often found that as a person with Borderline Personality Disorder, I can feel completely brought down to what feels like the point of no return, and then stumble on something like this that makes you realize how beautiful life can be in the little things - a spring breeze kicking up the scent of hyacinth, when the clouds part just enough to make it look like the sun is shining from heaven down onto a particular place, when the perfect song comes up at the perfect time on your playlist, when you smell something that triggers positive memories that make you smile.
If you need anything, feel free to contact me. It's important for you to know that you're never alone in how you feel, there's so many people who have been there and came out the other side. ((hugs))