I hear you, loud and clear. Michelle's advice is absolutely right. (Hun, I'm 19 and haven't had any of that relationship stuff. I swear, you will not die and your real friends will admit their lack of experiences right back to you.)
About depression: it is okay to not want help, but want it, but not. It is a confusing place to be. A few months ago, I admitted to my mother how much pain I had been in--it has done some small wonders to have help. No one will judge what you say and it is okay to have mixed feelings about the person you get. (My appointments are brisk, for instance, because I simply do not want to talk about everything in my life with someone I barely know. They have had ALL SORTS of professional relationships--they don't judge.)
Being social is a pain in the ass. Fact of life. It's normal to feel like you don't fit in--and that is something all Nerdfighters can agree on!! :)
If you need someone to talk to about these things, or anything, don't hesitate to drop me a line.
First off, no one will ever know the real you, but they don't have to. Also, here on NF there are a lot of nice people who will listen to what you have to say, me included. I was also depressed and I just didn't talk about it, at the same time I would sit miserable hoping someone would ask so I could tell someone. It's confusing. But you don't have to be scared, now that I'm thinking clear I can think of plenty of people who would want to listen and be okay with it. And if you want to get away from people then why do you care what other groups think? If you wouldn't want to be with them in the first place then they don't have to think your social. And the relationship thing, two things. First: you still have plenty of time and it doesn't matter to much. Second: With all of the hype it gets the first kiss is really a disappointment. I'm speaking on my behalf though, I don't know if other people got some amazing feeling.
Not necessarily. Everyone feels down sometimes, but if it keeps bothering you it is perfectly okay to talk to someone about it. Only you can decide if you will let nagging emotions bring you down. Don't forget that Nerdfighters are here to listen. DFTBA!
Confession: I acted like a complete whore online just to get guys attention.
Confession: I get nervous and awkward around everyone, but especially the people I am closest to. I say stupid, unfunny, and uninteresting things. That makes me not want to be around the people I love the most.
Confession: I care so much about one of my friends that I'm letting the possibility of what would happen if I didn't have him get in the way of enjoying be with him now.
confession: just confessed something to a friend.....of the graphic nature.
confession: they say the truth will set you free. That doesn't make me feel very free.
confession: thank god Tristan gets my twisted since of humor.