Roughing it.

[Carolyn Wisniewski]

Hey everyone, its been a long since I've opened up about my feelings. Or at least lately. I feel a bit lame posting on here about how I feel, considering most people here post brilliant things of awesomeness. But this last year has been quite.. Hellish I would say from break ups (no this is not a sappy romance rant), being in the hospital, getting through and finishing first year of university, loosing close friends, family issues. The list goes on a bit, and I know first off, because its usually one of the first thoughts that come to my mind. Why complain? I still have some parts of my life that are fantastic, which some people don't. But again, just lately I've been feeling a bit broken, not myself for sure. A lack of confidence, I really know it too. I just hope to hear some people out and see how their doing. First and for most, I care so much about people, more then most see. But I do care, and hope someone else comes to rant just besides me Dx

[Mike]

Sounds a lot like me two years ago...sounds a lot like me now. You should message me, I think we have a lot to discuss.

[kk :)]

we have a lot in common

[Toni Macaroni]

Oh god me too, it's just been soo stressful lately, and it's really hard to get out of this mood. I hope you and & I also feel better :)

[Carolyn Wisniewski]

Thank you everyone ^_^

Im hoping things do get better, I hope my health keeps up especially, since its been turning on me lately. But Im just trying to keep hope, hoping Ill be able to trust people again. Hoping Ill be able to fall in love again and be loved again. Same to all of you, everyone deserves the best or at least what they want <3

[Amanda]

Hi Carolyn...I obviously don't know specifically what's going on, but I do know what it's like to feel like you do right now.  I've been going through what I keep telling myself is a "transitional period" of my life...just wondering when the transition will be final!!  I also know how it feels to sometimes feel guilty about feeling the way you do because there ARE good parts of your life.  I try my hardest to keep positive and that's the best sort of advice I can offer...it might feel like its never going to end, that its never going to get better, but it will.  One day you'll look back on this time of your life and realize how much you learned from it, and how it made you that much stronger.  Take care...feel free to message me if you want to talk to a complete stranger.  :)

[Carolyn Wisniewski]

Oh yeah for sure, especially since I understand its life and you never kind of get out of the period of time. Because life continues, and it isn't always easy, which I've learned and dealt with as a kid. Growing up just wasn't easy but I also had the good parts and the bad. As of recent though, I don't want to make myself sound so typical, my love life has taken a trashing big time. I've trust people, I put everything into them and once something better I guess you could say came a long they left me. Being left behind by so many people, and having all the guys I ever been with to be my friends first to suddenly just turn on me the minute we becoming expressive of our feelings its just destroyed me. I want to say, I've always been a very very strong person, and I've always been the ones turned to for help but now I just feel weak and pathetic. And not because of the guys, but just because of the disastrous betrayal of trust. I've only recently have been coming around about my self confidence and actually like my body again for the most part. But yeah it really has been mentally trying.

[Christopher Baca]

i know exactly how you feel. it feels like everyday a part of my soul gets ripped out spit on and then shoved down my throat

[Carolyn Wisniewski]

Yeah, I've been feeling like this since Christmas. Then someone I had feelings for a long while before helped me out and not only broke my heart once but twice. I got played and I know it, and I've just been trying to forgive myself because I have forgive the person even though I wish they knew what they did.