Everyone has a point in their life when they notice, hey, I can have my own ideas, opinions. When you notice that you do not have to be what your parents are, or be what the crowd is. I am curious at what age or moment in your life you noticed who you are and what you stood for, and are you happy with who you currently are and what you stand for?
For me it was the later half of middle school. Recently though, just around last year, was when I noticed who I was, and broke free to become who I am. I had several friends tell me it was okay to believe what I believe, among several other things. And just became me. I always have things I wish to change and approve upon.
I think there wasnt I point when I became what I am that happend slowly and with the acumulation of my experiences.
I did, though, realise not so long ago that I will be who I am no matter if people likes it or not. Unfortunately it took me all this time to figure it out.
i put it down to when i went for my LAMDA grade six. it was the first time i had failed an acting grade, and it was at this point that i realised i don't like having my worth defined by what one person writes on a piece of paper. that also lead indirectly to me washing my hands of bureaucratic education. more to the point when i was waiting in the hallway for my card to be handed to me, i opened it and i see i didn't get a passing grade, and my mother sat next to me said "do you want a hug" and it was just completely the stupidest thing anyone had ever said to me. it was at this point i realised that my mothder really needed to grow up and stop expecting me to come running to her every time i skin my knee, and stop seeing her love as the solution to all of lifes problems.
it was many many years before she started to accept this.
you know the way your mother would give you a little pat on the ass sometimes when you're young, as a sign of affection? my mother did that right up until i was sixteen and she only stopped because i had to explain to her, with utmost directness, that it's freaking creepy. and you should have seen her face, she had this look of bewilderment and mortal confusion as to why a sixteen year old boy would find it creepy when his mother ropes his ass.
there are loads of moments like this. the one at the LAMDA exam was the big one though.
I think I became the current me this past summer. This summer was the first time that I was put in a place where nothing was familiar to me. I found out what parts of my behavior were natural to me and what parts had been conditioned to fit with the people around me.
Similar happened to me, I went on an Outward Bound experience for three weeks away from almost everything I knew. I didn't know anyone there are first, I didn't have internet access or much phone signal for the whole three weeks, we did more physical activities than I've ever been used to.
But it worked, I think it helped me a lot.