I am new to the Ning. It appears rather unusual, given how long I have been part of Nerdfighteria (almost four years), but my sense of unease around other people, even those similar to me, has hindered me in fighting worldsuck at times. This, I hope, will not always be the case going forward, and I also hope this blog post will be but the first of many.
Obviously, it is not a bad time to join the site as there is quite a sense of exhilaration currently gripping the Nerdfighter community, with the film adaptation of The Fault In Our Stars now showing for many of us, and due to be in cinemas elsewhere very soon. I, myself, will not see the movie until the 24th June at the earliest (though the release date for Ireland is the 19th, there is one person I want to watch it with, and I shall develop upon that in a later blog post). However, I do trust that those of you who will see it today and this weekend will thoroughly enjoy the film, and it is really quite the monumental occasion for most of us. I am delighted to see any one of John's book made into a successful film, as I have been a fan of his for four years, but it is of particular gratification to me that it is this book in particular, as I can relate to the characters in many ways. Whether it is through our mutual struggles with illness, coupled with the dark humour that those outside find shocking, or our shared thirst for knowledge and literature from what some feel is an unnaturally young age (I do not agree, personally, I feel we should all have such a desire, as young people), Hazel and Augustus are two of the more relatable characters I have met in any novel I have read. Essentially, it was the first book to really make me feel as if I belonged in the world.
Recently, I have taken a step up in battling worldsuck through campaigning for a suicide prevention charity. Even if leafleting for the organisation means on paper that most people I reach see me as nothing more than another Annoying B*****d Leaflet Guy, you can be sure that, in a city with an unfortunately high suicide rate, that a lot of people will have been, like myself, personally affected by the issue. My own life seems to be working itself out a little, for which I am grateful, as it is seldom I can say that. For once in my life, I have a number of people that could be considered to be akin to 'friends'. Even if it is depressing that this has finally arrived when I am seventeen years of age (and mentally aged a lot older), it is with challenge I am attempting to bring myself to recognise the positivity of the progress I am making, if overdue. I remain far from happy, but, to some extent, I am content with my lot. Seeing as the possibility of me having a future outside of the Council Estate Realm and my struggles with physical and mental illness is very much real now, the future is something I can now realistically plan for. Right now, I simply feel the need to be thankful for the steps I have taken forward.
The extent to which this blog post is relevant or irrelevant remains unbeknownst to me, but I hope that I can get to know some people via this website and aid you all in the fight against worldsuck. Thank you.