So many of us have problems in our life but some of us are to scared to deal with them, I am one of those people. Why? I'll tell you that.
About two months ago I, on accident, told my best friends mother that she skipped a class to travel with her mother, what I did not know was that the mother did not know this. Instead my friend had told her that she didn't have a class at all after her first class. Okay, this is the beginning that happended on a Sunday and the next day the school had a day outside planned by me mostly. Anyhow, I saw her there and noticed that she didn't react at when she saw me. So I went to her and asked if she was mad about yesterday, asuming that her mother talked to her, her answear was "Of course I am." and then she turned away from me.
I have known her for over 16 years so I thought she would get passed this so I didn't say anything else, as long as it didn't interfere with school work seeing how we were in the same group in Swedish class.
Two weeks passed and only thing I've said to her is one sentence about my work in the group, so suddenly she calls me the day before our presentation and talks about work. Me, being the person I am, thought that everything was fine and went to school the day after unknowingly about what would happen that day.
We are sitting in class and listening to others doing their presentation when it was our turn to talk, then she suddenly said that she would do the work on paper and I am sitting there just looking at her because she had not said a word to me about that. Thankfully a girl in class suddenly said that she can do her presentation.
I am now sitting and thinking that this draws the line, I have been okay with her not talking to me but when she involved school work in this I got mad as well.
So this is my story, now I am sitting here two months later thinking about how this all could end. We have not spoken since then and so much have happened, one of the things being that my father was in the hospital last week after an operation and she did not say a word to me at all when I needed someone.
What I think about now is that if I were to talk to her about this, are we going to end our relationship as friends? Are we going to forget everything that happened these 16 years, all the good and bad memories?
I'm so scared but I toss and turn at night thinking about this, I can't go on like this.
I have made up my mind, I will talk to her the next time I get the chance, it may be at school, by the buss station and pretty much anywhere where she is alone!
This may be a little melodramatic but I have never been through something like this before.
What I was wondering from this is, is there something that you are afraid of facing? And are you going to face your problem like I am planning to face mine?
(Sorry for this long text, I needed to get this out and the ning was the best place)