Nerdfighteria, fear is all I could thing about. I wanted to post a blog to tell about my experience about it. This week,or the last two days, has hit hard. Hear are my thoughts about the subject.
Fear-a game that we all play. It is a emotion that we all share. The only thing is it is like pain, we don't like the feeling. It is just awful(in the suck terms).We all know the feeling; the pit in your stomach is cold, wanting to walk or, better, run to cover, stay way from the thing from the thing we fear about. Sometimes it is enjoyable like: a scary movie or a story. Other times we don't want to be scared and that is what fear is.
Yesterday, I was looking up Urban Legion for class when I found out, the girl dies at the end. Instead of crying like the wimp I am, but being scared. I was so scared that I couldn't sleep last night. Then I try to take a bath, I almost couldn't. I started to thing, what if the lights went out. Then stories came back to my head. The girl, coming out of my shower head screaming at me, right when the lights went out. What if I tripped and bang my head on the toilet right when the lights went out. Sure I will have the idea of the flex compasiture, but what if nobody comes to my aid. What if I died. Then I hit me(not literally). I was not scared of the girl who died at the end or tripping and falling in the dark; I was scared of dying.
The thing of fear that we are scared of dying. The truth is that we are going to die sometimes. The way fear entertain us is that it happened to someone else and that we don't like when people die boringly. We, the people that are scared of everything, are take that one step further and think if that happen to us. The thing is, we can't get rid of fear. We can only face it. That act is called courage. We do stuff not because we enjoy it, it is either we have to do it, or we want to please people.
When I was almost not going to take a bath, I told myself that if I don't, I will stink. Everyone at school will be, "Why didn't you take bath," and all I will say, "I was scared." I didn't want to stink just because I was scared. So what I did was put my clothes in the towel closet, turn on the light, closed the door but did not locked it, turned on the water, let the water get warm, got in, showered and did everything I did on a usually day, dried myself, put my clothes on and got out as fast as I can. That was a small act of courage. I am taking my fear slowly. Soon, I can take a five minute shower instead of the three zoe-my-goodness-something-is-coming-after-me-so-I-have-to-get-the-fuck-out minute bath. It was a tiny bit a courage but I was brave enough to say that "I will not stink because I showered."
Fear can be a good thing too. If your friend told you to jump off the cliff you wouldn't. You were scared to jump off because you would be dead. That is how fear could be good. If you did jump out off the cliff, that is crazy, not courage. To do something just to please someone(it just depends but in this case) you are crazy. Note: that if is not life threading, you can have courage your way out of fear to please someone.
Fear is not a useless emotion. No emotion is a useless emotion. We all have fear. The only bad thing about that, we don't like the way fear feels.
So that is my encounter on fear. Hope you like it. If you want comment; I like to hear what you have to say about the subject. Also, should I make more blogs. I felt giving Nerdfighteria my thoughts today.
Thank for reading, bye.