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[Chiara Bridget]

There are always those times when your just doing nothing after having a bad day where you just think to yourself 'why did I want to grow up so badly its sucks when I was young everyone would get along being different didn't matter'. What sucks the most about not being young any more is the when I younger there was this kind of hope of complete independence and freedom, when there really the difference is that the people controlling us aren't people we love like our parents but instead people who actually don't care about us. People who wear suits everyday and control our every move cause if you make the wrong one you can't fix it with a few tears and begging for forgiveness instead you are on the cold street. In kinder grant everybody would get along with each other most of the time because we just use to play with lego and barbies. This entry might be a bit depressing but today was one of those days where I just became scared of the future. It's 3 years to my finals and it might seem a long way away but the teachers have been talking about it since I was in year 7 so its always been something thats scared me, its come to the part were I wish I could just stop time I will stay in year 9 forever just so I don't go to year 12 and sit this exam thats mean't to set out the rest of my life so if I fail then I'm stuffed and theres nothing I can do about it. I just wish I could stop growing up and always live in this moment were my future isn't being planned out yet by an exam...

[Sarah H]

Hey Chiara.  Maybe you don't want advice from a stranger, but here we are.  I remember when I was about 3 years away from graduating high school, and I felt like every choice I made, my whole life hung in the balance.  I was encouraged in this view by teachers and guidance counselors who didn't want me to limit my opportunities.  That's a good goal, but it ended up freaking me out a lot more than was necessary.  I'm in my mid-twenties, and my life is not at all what I envisioned or feared.  I guess that's my point, really.  I used to have fears and anxieties a lot like what you're describing here, and it didn't really turn out like that at all.