One Week and I'm still Breathing

[Heather Donkers]

I have yet another song to quote this time. The song is called “The World Is Mine (I Don’t Know Anything) by Alex Day.

 

My strings are broken and my heart is out of tune
I wanted quiet but all I see is you
I don’t know anything

I stumbled forward and you let me walk away
We both know I’ll be running back to you someday
I don’t know anything

The earth is spinning but my feet are standing still
And the wind is biting but I’m fighting off the chill
I don’t know anything

So let’s pretend for just one minute
The world, the world, the world, the world
The world is mine but you’re not there

They say time’s a healer but my watch can’t tell the time
The left hand’s stuck six months ago and I can’t find the right
I don’t know anything

The pen is stronger than any sharpened sword
But everything I write to you makes me feel like a fool
I don’t know anything

I feel like I can do anything
Why don’t you understand

Why don’t you see what I could be

Why can’t you see
I’d trade in the world for you

It’s been one week since Mark and I have broken up and I guess I’m handling it about as well as I can. I do wish that things didn’t have to change but I believe that things happen for a reason. I know I say that a whole lot but it’s true. Today is Mark’s birthday so maybe that is why he’s weighing heavily on my mind. There are many nights where all I want is to be held and cuddled. I know I couldn’t do that with anyone but Mark at this point in time... I am very thankful for my friends that have been ever so supportive and good at keeping me busy.

I had a great weekend with some really good friends that I haven’t seen in a while! I went to the Lindsay rodeo and it was nice to kick back with my rodeo family again because it’s been a wile since I have got to spend time with them. I do hope that I get to spend many weekends with them this year. Getting out keeps my mind occupied and that is very good because when I am alone I have far too much time to think and it makes me wonder how I am ever going to get over this? I’ve never been heartbroken before and now that I know what it feels like I never ever want to feel like this again. 

On that sunny thought I am going to attempt on getting some sleep. As long as I can keep my mind from wandering too much it shouldn’t be too much of an issue.

Best Wishes,
<3 Heather <3

[Heather Donkers]

Awe thank you! <3 I am slowly getting better. It's hard to deal with and I don't like it.

[Jennie Rae Urban]

If I was there, I'd cuddle with you.  :3  And if you need someone...I'm usually around, unless I'm working, in which case, I'll be back soon anyway, because my shifts haven't been too long lately.  I mean it.  <hugs>