Well the past month has definitely been rather interesting for me. I shall start with the bad: I spent a lot of time being upset over Mark and my break up. The good: I have been spending a lot of time with a childhood friend whom has really helped me tie up the loose ends and deal with the mental pain. The ugly: some of my friends feel abandoned because I’ve been spending a lot of time with Stephen...
After my weekend at the Holstein Rodeo I finally got the closure I was needing to let go of Mark completely and that was like a massive weight had been lifted off of me. Words can never describe how thankful I am for everyone whom has helped me through the break up. My true friends were there in my greatest time of need. I would have to say the people that have helped me the most are Ashley, Calvin H, Calvin P, Claire, Danielle, Jessica, Jessie, Jay and Stephen. These people have listened to my endless complaining and never told me to shut up about it. I thank all of them for what they have done and how they have helped me because I would not have made it through without them. There were days where I didn’t even want to come out of my bedroom because I really didn’t want to face the world.
I am rather sad though because some of the people I care about have been hurt by me and it was never my intention to hurt them. I am hoping that I can talk things out with them and make it better because family and friendship is the most important thing to me! Without a strong family and friend support system no one would ever get through rough times and we all know that I have gone through some pretty crappy times.
My life is going in a much better direction at the moment and I am looking forward to the future now. I have been much happier lately than I have been in months and I’m really hoping to smooth things out with some of my friends because I don’t want to loose them. Time will tell how things work out but I am hoping they keep on the bright side.
<3 Heather <3