Today has been exhausting.. and it's not even 1:00 yet

[Rachel Roland]

Soo i'm waiting for a class to start, and i'm bored... so i'm blogging.

I've realized today that one, I stress out a lot over seemingly small things, and two I have no energy left.

SO i'm trying to decide if I want to transfer schools for the next semester and this is scary because the school that I want to go to is really expensive. The one I go to currently is not a bad University by any means, but I'm just not that happy here. I'm not excited to come to school... not even one day out of the week. This place is just too big for my comfort. I know I do well in smaller classrooms and schools in general. I lose drive and focus when I feel like I'm swimming in this sea of people that probably have few things in common with me, and my professors will probably never learn my name. My average class size is about 300.. and that'll probably go up because of budget cuts. So anyway, the school I wish to go to is smaller, environment-focused, and just overall made of awesome. I got accepted there after I graduated from high school but I couldn't go because my parents didn't want me to take out loans etc etc... I've spent two years at the university that they conveniently wanted me to go to, and I just still don't find it appealing and I don't enjoy it here.

The point of this blog is not to complain, but see if it makes sense that I want to try and make a proposal to my parents to go to my dream school and take out loans for my last 2 years of undergrad. I've already started the process of research on costs and my application, and it's kinda scary because rejection via my parents would cause some major world-suck for me.. but i'm going to try anyway.

Wish me luck.